Tweekedbylife – Flickr
Well feeling much better today. Strong drugs can make all the difference in the world. I am feeling better although the constriction on my chest is still tight and last night still had to sit up and tell myself to breathe. Quite an eerie feeling as you wake to find you can’t draw air. If I had been told that I wouldn’t panic while it was occurring I most likely would have laughed. I mean you’re not breathing and it feels as if your body has forgotten how. But no it must be survival instinct. I sit up and start telling my muscles what to do and it clicks pretty quickly.
The Dr is concerned and wants to see if it clears up once my infection has cleared up. If I haven’t cured by Friday it means Saturday a trek back , blood tests and xrays. I have a sneaking suspicion this will be done anyway as the problem actually occurred before I became ill. The illness just exacerbated it.
picturejockey – flickr
K had a rude shock today I had been trying to explain finances to him and I finally managed to get it all down on paper AND get him to look at it. It hit him. It hit him hard and he stalked out. I feel better he knows exactly where we stand and he settled down and starting to figure it out. He has realised that if it hadn’t been my careful budgeting we would have been in trouble long ago but enough is enough.
So what was the reason I showed him after trying not to stress him? I was sick. He had a go at me about spending (which was unjust he was the one who took $40 out of the account for hamburgers for himself and a friend!) and I tossed everything at him. Not the best way maybe but I wanted to show him.
Anyway he is thinking and I am no longer alone in carrying the burden. If we sold the truck we would be fine. Still paying part of it off but fine.
Peace will return to my heart and I suspect part of my health problems will lift as well.
Norby – flickr
We will soon return to our normal programming.
